My My My , i could go on for DAYS about this topic ... From an Outsiders point of view it may seem as if e v e r y thing is peaches and creme with me , from the fact you can never catch me looking down , or to the style of clothes i wear, or how i present myself ..Behind every person is a story wether it has been told or not is up to you... NO i wasn't brought up by a Fein or Addict or some pimp father.. But i can say a fein probably equals up to everything my father is ( no he does not do drugs)... In fact he doesn't even deserve to be called a FATHER i like to say "sperm donor" my mother thinks its me but my heart doesn't.. Growing up My MOTHER has always been a father figure to me ... AND my "donor" was sort of like those friends (i mentioned earlier) who walk in & right back o u t ... of my life to the point his presence didn't even matter to me i wouldn't care if i even spoke to the bastard... I don't think i've ever met a more selfish , careless, good for nothing , WORTHless individual until i met my "DONOR"... A person who believed little SNEAKER money was what made me happy .. i mean new things are always good but once you've given a person a reason to truely grow to HATE you , you've done a life time job (bravo) ... Me and my Mom would have to hear it if i e v e r asked him for anything always complained and n e v e r offered not that i've ever had to w a n t for anything from HIM... but i'm a female sometime we need new things... It came to a point where i told myself he contributes NOTHING to my life , no support , no l o v e , no fatherly effection , no T I M E no nothing so why do i need another worthless person in my life? missed countless big accomplishments in my life such as my middle school graduation , high school graduation , and im pretty sure once i graduate college he'll be one less person in the audience ... some may say some of these things are hurtful and careless ... however i could honestly CARELESS... i don't to carry on with this topic i'd like to THANK my father for showing me exactly how i want my husband NOT to be , how i want my future children to never have the audacity to be a worthless father and how one single human being could pull of being a full time MOTHER & FATHER & picking up the "slack' of my "donor"...( my mom that is ) I don't think "DONOR'S" understand the effect they have on their children , nor will they ever to the REAL fathers outthere ( runs , jumps up , and high fives you guys) "THATS WHAT THE F%#K IM TALKING ABOUT" you guys should really be proud of yourselves.. it takes a BOY to make a baby , a MAN to raise on , .. its crazy when you wanna be nothing like your daddy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EH5uRD2vl4Y
" daddys out there entertaining everybody , but missed out when it came to training for the potty"
My Mother on another hand , many of you who KNOW me personally or just have me on any social network , know the relationship me and my mother have , i may be a brat & maybe a tad bit spoiled but everything i have received so far i deserve .. i just want to thank my mother for being there with me no matter the situation for being strong for the 4 of us ( my two sisters) ... Her countless effort to g i v e so that me and my sister never had to w a n t..working to make sure w e ate .. i Appreciate the fact i can come to you about A N Y thing going on in my life , i can laugh with you , cry with you , express anything to you and whole heartedly appreciate you .. even if i dont get the chance to tell you it as much as i want .. I dont think ill fully understand your struggle untill i have a kid of my own until then ill look up and take advice from my very own superwomen ...i dont think i can say or do enough to repay you but i'd like you to know that your struggle , effort , and support is never unnoticed And even if i don't make straight A's i can ensure that I'LL MAKE YOU PROUD .even if it kills me
Love you G ... ;)
Deep!
ReplyDeletei really thought that i was the only one that goes through exact..literally the exact same thing that you are going through. my mother and my grandmother raised me with NO help with from my father. My father has been the one to walk in when it was okay for him and walk out when he wanted to, with no thought about how i would feel. At a point of time i was open to let him in my life but after the multiple times he walked in and out, i gave up with him, i couldnt take it any longer. When i was younger i used to cry and cry about it because i was so hurt. at a time i was even jealous of friends of mine who dads were in their life, but then i grew up and realized that i cant change that man. he would have to change on his own. and what makes evrything worse is that he is married with another child by his wife and a step child. they get all his attention and i get nothing. i grew up fine without him, have evrything going for myself, no babies, not running the streets, in school, get good grades, ALL WITH OUT HIM. it breaks my heart that he isnt there for me but Im over it now. i praise my mother for being a strong and independent women.
ReplyDeleteSo hunny you are not alone, i feel your pain. all we can do as individuals is push for ourselves and be sure that our children would NEVER have to go through what we did.
Nariah K.
I love this blog. my absolute favorite my father 2 walks in and out my life like its nothing.He's never there for me and i was raised by my grandmother. I never had a father figure i just know when i find the right one i want him to be the opposite of my father. I feel as though im a trophy. He brags about all my accomplishments and lie to everyone about taking care of me . I also feel as though people look at me like everything is all good and dont understand me. But trust i understand the way you feel about your father, because its the same with me.
ReplyDeletethanks all <3
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